My Journey after Pregnancy - Week 3

Friday, April 25, 2014

I started my pregnancy at 119lbs and 31 inches. 
I finished my pregnancy at 140lbs and 39 inches.

Pounds lost since pregnancy: -19.4 pounds

Inches lost since pregnancy: -7 inches

Pounds lost since last week: -4 pounds

Inches lost since last week: -1 inch

What I have been doing for fitness: Eating a lot of white meat, veggies and fruit. Drinking lots of water and breastfeeding.

This weeks biggest struggle: This week my biggest struggle is making time for me. I have to make it a set goal that I sit down and get food in my stomach. I spend so much time running around that it's no wonder these pounds are shedding off. 

Short term  goals: Start walking more once the weather gets nice. This is still my goal! Once its nice out I will probably be in a set schedule to walk in the afternoons once Brayden wakes up from his nap. 

Long term goals: 110 pounds and the ability to run a mile in 6 minutes. Tighten up my loose skin mom pouch! 

Weekly wisdom: You can't reach your goals if you aren't even trying. Put forth the effort and you will see results. 

I promise these will get more interesting when I can start working out and sharing tips! 
Until then thank you for reading my boring posts! 

Heartbreak or Hormones

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Are you pregnant or just had a baby?
Are you suddenly wondering where the "butterflies" went in your relationship?
Why you and your loved one seem to be at each others throats more then ever lately?
Wondering why the thought of even having sex turns you OFF not on? 
Just weeks ago you were practically dry humping your partner and now you don't want him to touch you. 
Are you evaluating your life from your bathroom floor with tears streaming down your face? 
Are you wondering how and the hell you are going to be a single mom because clearly you are no longer "in love". 

Don't worry you are completely NORMAL
There are millions of other pregnant and postpartum mommas doing the same exact thing.
Did you know that loss of libido aka your sex drive is a common side effect of pregnancy? 
Lets take a look of the many reasons why women and even men lose their sex drive. 

Hormones → Loss of sex drive
Stress → Loss of sex drive 
Exhaustion → Loss of sex drive
Self-conscious → Loss of sex drive
Anxiety → Loss of sex drive 
No sex in a relationship → Fighting 
Fighting → More relationship problems
Ultimately you feel heartbroken and confused. 
Suddenly it makes sense why pregnancy can cause all this. 

I have been there and dealt with the horrible effects this has on a relationship.
When I was pregnant with Brayden, Matthew and I were still getting comfortable together. 
We had just made the big step to get our own apartment as well as finding out we were expecting. 
We had just started dating in March and lets face it I couldn't get enough of him. 
I couldn't wait to pull him in a room and have a hot steamy make out session. 
I had just graduated from training for the Army and never felt better about my body.
I had muscles in my arms, legs, stomach even my butt was on point! 
I loved that he couldn't get enough of me and well... that's how Brayden was made. 

Fast forward a few months and a few pounds...
I was miserable yet never been more excited about growing a baby.
My breasts had doubled in size resulting in huge red stretch marks underneath. 
(Thankfully these are now faded) 
All my clothes were suddenly too small and far from appealing. 
Not the attractive kind of belly shirts either. 
More like an old guy with a beer belly wearing a shirt from his young days. 
I packed away my extra small shirts and size 0 pants in hopes that one day I may fit in them again. 
Here we are almost two years later and they are still packed away... I don't want to talk about it. 

As I was saying, 
I struggled with restless legs and pelvis/hip pain during my pregnancy.
More so with Brayden then Elena but ultimately both. 
So here I am feeling fat, crampy, exhausted and the opposite of attractive. 
I don't blame my sex drive for running off and hiding in some deep trench. 
I went from looking like I belonged on the cover of a Playboy magazine 
To looking like I belonged on a Weight Watchers commercial. 
I was mortified and felt like Matt would feel like he was "stuck with me".
I started pushing him away and making excuses of why I didn't want to have sex.

At the time I was working around 30 hours a week and on my feet a lot.
I would use the excuse that I was tired or simply just fall asleep before he could even try anything. 
It didn't take long for the fights to start up. 
I remember one night sitting in a bubble bath bawling my eyes out while googling
"I am pregnant and no longer in love with the father"
I was shocked at how many group conversations there were with the same topics. 
Pages and pages of other females feeling the SAME EXACT WAY. 

But here is where I was wrong
I wasn't not in love with Matt. 
I was not in love with myself
I was tired and stressed. 
I was nervous about becoming a mother. 
I was overwhelmed with the changes my body was going through. 
Non of this was Matts problem, he was the same guy I fell in love with. 
He felt like I didn't love him anymore because suddenly I just didn't want him to touch me. 
Confused on how I went from not getting enough of him to wanting nothing to do with him. 
I don't blame him for feeling unloved and thinking there was possibly someone else. 

In the end I guess I just realized that hormones are nothing to mess with. 
Not only can they make us go from happy, bitchy to sappy in seconds
but they can also completely change a relationship. 
I told Matt that crazy hormones is pregnancies way of testing relationships 
to see if they are strong enough to bring a baby into the picture. 
Thankfully we passed the test, twice

In Kelsey's case she struggled more with postpartum loss of sex drive. 
She also decided to share her experience and some advice below. 

Having a baby changes everything.
 Not only your body but your relationship in so many ways.
I always thought babies bring people closer together, 
but I was very blindsided by the overwhelming flow of emotions after giving birth. 
 I love my husband, his efforts day in and day out, his caring and generous manner, 
but during my early postpartum months I had zeroed out my feelings.
 I did not want to be touched, talked to, or even looked at. 
I just wanted to be left alone with my baby. 
Weird, huh? We spent months of going back and forth, 
fighting about the smallest things because I was analytic of every move he made. 
The last thing I wanted was to be intimate. 
But, we made it.. we are a normal husband and wife again. 
It's not easy regulating those crazy hormones, and unfortunately 
we always tend to take our frustrations out on the ones we love most. 
Slowly, but surely, your relationship will get back to the way it was. 
It's important to know that these things can and do happen, it's human nature. 
Support each other through all the changes, 
because most likely your significant other is having a rough time adjusting, too. 
The greatest thing to bond over-your little blessing.

Here is our advice to you:
  1. Remember the reasons why you love your partner and what attracted you to them in the first place. 
  2. Don't just give them the cold shoulder when you are going through these changes. Talk to them! 
  3. Please your man. It doesn't have to be sex there are many other ways to keep them happy. 
  4. Don't say anything in the heat of the moment because you can't take back words once they are said. 
  5. Just know it's going to be OKAY. You aren't alone with your emotions, google it if you don't believe me! 
  6. I promise your butterflies will come back and bigger then ever. I remember looking at Matt holding Brayden as soon as he was born and I just wanted to attack him then. Nothing is more attractive then seeing your man be a great father. 
  7. Watch a movie- Doing things together still brings you close, and you will both be able to unwind with each other. 
  8. Give each other massages- Lord knows us mama's need one. Your man will appreciate the gesture as well.
  9. Have date nights-It is very beneficial to have that same one on one time that once brought you two together. Even if you don't want to leave the baby, wait until the little one is asleep, get take-out, some wine, and have a little in home date-it's the thought that counts.
  10. If you are ever feeling over whelmed talk to a friend and have them calm you down. Being upset isn't good for you or the baby. Don't have a friend? We are great listeners. 

What were your experiences with your Sex Drive and Pregnancy?
Please comment below I am very interested in others experiences. 

My Journey after Pregnancy - Week 2

Thursday, April 17, 2014

I started my pregnancy at 119lbs and 31 inches. 
I finished my pregnancy at 140lbs and 39 inches.

Pounds lost since pregnancy: -16 pounds

Inches lost since pregnancy: -6 inches

What I have been doing for fitness: Eating healthier and breastfeeding.

This weeks biggest struggle: This week I noticed that I have a fear of leaving my house because of the fact I do strictly breast feed Elena and haven't made time to start pumping to build a supply for feedings in public with a bottle. A reason this effects my fitness is for example today would have been an amazing day to go for a walk. 

Short term  goals: Start walking more once the weather gets nice.

Long term goals: 110 pounds and the ability to run a mile in 6 minutes.

Weekly wisdom: Know that your cravings don't control you. You can easily say no and find alternate ways to satisfy your sweet tooth! 

I promise these will get more interesting when I can start working out and sharing tips! 
Until then thank you for reading my boring posts! 

Sawyer's Safe Place

First I would like to take the time to give you all a quick introduction of Whitney and her journey. 
Ten years ago Nick and Whitney met.
Seven and a half years ago they started dating 
and on March 10th 2012 they said "I do!"

After months of trying to conceive
Whitney finally got her BFP!
They found out they would be having
a baby girl expected April 2014!
Now I get the pleasure of sharing her adorable nursery with you all! 
So as the days get closer to baby Sawyer's arrival, I think we can finally say we have completed her nursery. 
For now, at least. I am always adding new projects here and there. 
First off, her bedding is from my friend Krystal at KLBaby

Krystal did an amazing job. She actually bought the giraffe fabric while we will still trying to conceive last year with her fingers crossed we would have a girl, and I am so glad that she did. 
The giraffe fabric is "giraffe love" by Michael Miller Fabrics.

The crib sheet is from Target, she provided me with a crib sheet as well but I wanted to bring a little orange in the room.

Krystal also so very graciously sent me some free scraps she had from not only my crib set but some other coordinating fabrics as well. I went ahead and made the flag bunting that goes around the 2 walls of her room with those scraps and some 1/2 inch bias tape, the entire project ran me about $3.60 or so. 

After cutting out the triangles, which were all ROUGHLY the same size and shape, 
I went to Hobby Lobby and bought 2 packs of 1/2" white bias tape (in the quilting section). 
They run for $1.79 a pack and are 4 yards in length each.

I thought about sewing them all on, but then decided to use my hot glue gun. I had some gluesticks left over from a wedding project that were made specifically for fabric so those did the trick!

Since I have a problem wasting anything that can be put to good use, I also used the scraps I made from cutting out the triangles and made this cute little snuggle blanket. 
It cost me roughly $3.50 for 1/2 yard of pink dimple dot Minky fabric from Walmart.

I knew I didn't want the smaller letters they sell at Walmart or Hobby Lobby, and I knew I wanted a modern font so I ordered some from

They are 16" tall, 1/2 thick, Helvetica font. 
They were $14.15 each, bringing my grand total with out shipping to $84.90. 
I bought these during Black Friday so I was able to use a code for free shipping. 

For the paint color I went with Valspar Passion Pink. It is a perfect girly coral color. I only bought the sample paint size and have plenty left over for additional projects down the road. A sample at our local Lowes is $2.98 and I am more than happy with how they turned out. They fit the wall size perfectly.

The glider and ottoman I bought on a local buy-sell-trade facebook site.
 It was originally a natural light wood with a tan tweed cushion. 
I painted the chair base high gloss white and my mom recovered the cushions in fabric from!

The curtains are from Target, I bought some ribbon from Hobby Lobby
as well as some iron-on hem tape, and made them in about 30 minutes.
The curtain panels were under $10 each and the ribbon and hem tape were around $12.

The bookshelves are also handmade. I love how they display the book covers!
A good friend of mine made them from 1x3's and painted them white to match the rest of the furniture. 

I love the closet doors. They were very, very, very time consuming to measure, tape, and paint, but in the end they were SO worth it!

The paint is Lemon Drops by Behr at Home Depot

The inside of the closet has her clothes from newborn to 3 months hanging. 
It also has a spot for blankets, pants, socks, bows, etc. 
The hanging organizer and bins are from
I had a Christmas discount code so the total with shipping and tax after the discount was $75.24!
My handy husband did a weekend project adding a second shelf and pole for all of Sawyer's little bitty clothes.
The purple bins above are from Walmart. I got a lot of hand me downs so I organized them by size to make it easier when Sawyer grows into them. 

The art above the changing table is a custom set PDF set I purchased from babyartprints on Etsy
I paid $9 for the PDF, I then uploaded it to and printed the 3 pictures for $3.17 with tax.

The frames are from Walmart. They were $38.73 with tax for the 3. The only problem was they were BLACK. So, I painted them with some left over paint from the glider.

The dresser my mom and dad bought as a gift for Sawyer from
I ordered the blue acrylic knobs from ebay
The changing pad cover is from
The gray basket on the top of the dresser was a gift at the baby shower.

My favorite part about the dresser?? It holds all of my super cute cloth diapers I have 
been buying over the years while we were waiting for our little blessing!

The overall color of the room is tempered gray by Valspar
I think it is the perfect gray for a babies room since it isn't too dark. 

And last is my super cute clothes hamper from target. It was on clearance for $10. 
The liner is a Planet Wise cloth diaper pail liner in the color "sea spray" from

I hope you all enjoyed Sawyer's Nursery Tour! 

To stay up to date with Whitney, Nick and soon to be baby Sawyer follow her below!

My Journey after Pregnancy

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

First a quick introduction of what these posts will be all about. 
Since I no longer will be posting Pregnancy Boards (shocker huh?) 
I decided to replace it with my journey as I work on getting back into shape. 
Notice how I didn't say getting back to my pre pregnancy body because lets face it
my body will never be what it once was and I am okay with that. 
My stomach has stretched to hold an 8 pound 4 ounce baby.
My hips have widened to allow not just one but two babies to pass through. 
My breasts have now been a main source of nutrition to two little bundles of joy. 
They have grown, shrunk and grown again. 
The first step is acceptance and I have accepted.
My. Body. Will. Never. Be. The. Same.
But to me it will be better. 
I will be sharing my week to week progress, struggles and even workouts eventually. 
I will be keeping track of my weight, waist measurements and physical appearance. 
I will answer all questions and even give any needed advice in the comments below. 
Are you wanting to get in shape for the summer season too? Join my journey. 
This post was a bit delayed but I did take the photos on my 1 week post anniversary. 
I will be posting every Friday! 
 Here's to a new body. 

I started my pregnancy at 119lbs and 31 inches. 
I finished my pregnancy at 140lbs and 39 inches.

Pounds lost since pregnancy: -15 pounds

Inches lost since pregnancy: -5.5 inches

What I have been doing for fitness: Eating healthy and breastfeeding.

This weeks biggest struggle: Lack of sleep = lack of ambition.

Short term  goals: Start walking more once the weather gets nice.

Long term goals: 110 pounds and the ability to run a mile in 6 minutes.

Weekly wisdom: Don't push your self too hard the first few weeks. Focus on cuddling your newborn and letting your body repair.

Left: Before my pregnancy with Brayden.
Right: After my pregnancy with Brayden but before my pregnancy with Elena.

One hour after delivering Elena.

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